Monthly Archive for September, 2008

Praise

On Friday I was in a meeting with a vice president that’s in my actual reporting chain. The other military guys were part of this meeting and we were discussing the who program of bringing us in to Travelers and how we are doing. Us military guys of course want them to tell us we rock, but we also have to accept that we don’t have the experience with business that other people our age have. Basically, it went really well and the one thing I took out of it that I really liked was this statement, “We wouldn’t be wasting our time to improve you as leaders if we didn’t feel you were already really good.”

One other thing I took out of the meeting was a goal she set for us, “We want you to be so good at your job that if we ever decided to pull you off the project, people would be VERY mad at us.”  They recently tried to pull me off of my direct mail project and the Senior VP in charge of it said, “No.”  They weren’t in a position to argue, so I stayed on the project.  It just made me feel good about myself.

On Saturday, September 20th, we had dinner at our neighbor’s house.  We had a good time and even got to bring Parker along.  They have two yellow labs who are much bigger than Parker, but they all seem to get along well.  Sharron and I always consider Parker the sweetest, nicest dog ever.  However, Michael sent us this picture:

Doesn’t he look like the MOST evil dog ever!?

List of Lists of things

Ok, both Janet and Sharron did it, so here goes:

Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people right now:

1 – I love you!
2 – John thinks you rock!
3 – I’ve lost track of many of my friends in life and I don’t want to lose track of you too.
4 – Why are you mad at me?
5 – Don’t you realize all the hurt you’ve caused me?
6 –

Nine things about myself:

1 – I want to lose weight
2 – Things that make many people upset I tend to find inconsequential.
3 – I hate having a budget!
4 – I love my job (again, this seems to be completely opposite of everyone (but perhaps Urn))
5 – I love to read
6 – I hate having to dress up for work
7 – I hate my hair (I wish I could find a cool style that’s easy to comb)
8 – Survivor is my favorite TV show (Still!)
9 – I am obsessed with theme parks (and looking at pictures of them online)

Eight ways to win my heart:

1 – Listen
2 – Talk with me
3 – Be as excited about things as I am
4 – Give big hugs
5 – Smile and laugh
6 – Have self confidence
7 – Enjoy yummy foods
8 – Love going places

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:

1 – Story ideas
2 – Oh God, I don’t want to do house work, I just want to be lazy
3 – I want to take Parker for longer and longer walks
4 – Surreptitious EXcellence
5 – Games/books/shows I’m playing/reading/watching
6 – Songs that I’ve heard recently
7 – The color blue

Six things I do before I fall asleep

1 – Pee
2 – Turn my alarm on
3 – Lay on my back for awhile
4 – Roll over onto my side (usually my left)
5 – Put chap stick on (Vaseline Night Time lately)
6 – Rub my eyes

Five people that mean a lot to me:

1 – Sharron
2 – Parker
3 – Urn
4 – Tom
5 – Parents

Four things I’m wearing right now:

1 – Belt
2 – Hair product
3 – Black shoes
4 – Silk underwear

Three songs I listen to often (Lately)

1 – Handlebars – The Flobots
2 – America – Neil Diamond
3 – Let it Die – Foo Fighters

Two things I want to do before I die:

1 – See the Pyramids
2 – Write and publish a book

One confession:

1 – I don’t try as hard at most things in life as I could

Invasion

Not sure what’s up with me and the crazy dreams lately, but last night it was an alien invasion.  I was in a military unit of some sort and we were fighting the invaders (who looked human) and I was about to be killed…so I surrendered (go me).  The rest of my unit had been captured without surrender, so they were being forced into slave labor while I was being treated as more of a pet.  I kept collaborating with the other surrendees and we began to form a resistance.  By the end of my dream we’d launched our attack and I was killing them aliens.  It felt weird though because they looked human and I was afraid I was just killing regular people.

Football

Yesterday afternoon was the company picnic for Travelers.  I’d been talked by some of my business partners into playing on their flag football team.  They were totally gung ho about it too.  We had 3 practices and even bought t-shirts.  After the first practice, I felt really good about the team.  Almost all of the team had shown up and we mostly were just feeling each others abilities out.  After the second practice, I began to see some problems.  Only 1/2 of the team showed up.  There was no one person in charge of the team.  Everyone had a different idea of what plays we should run and how to do things.  We did finally decide on some plays and a defensive strategy though.  After the third practice, I knew things weren’t going very well for us.  More people showed up and the “team” decided that we should ignore all the work we’d done the previous practice and come up with new ideas.  There was more angst about who should do what.  Somehow I’d even been placed at center on offense.  It was not a sign that boded well for us.

Yesterday at 12:15 was our game.  We did a little practicing again before the game and I found out that again our plays had been changed.  There was more angst.  When the game began though, we came together.  Our team scored first and we were feeling good.  Our opponents were playing at the same level we were and it was a pretty good game.  I didn’t play very well on offense, but I did great at defense (more on that in a bit).  The game had two halves, each being 11 minutes.  The clock only stops during the last minute of each half.  It was a FAST game.  In the last 5 minutes of the second half the score was 7 to 6 with us leading.  We threw an interception and it was run back for a touchdown.  Awhile later we threw another interception which was run back for a touchdown.  Game over man!  Game over!

Before the second interception, we were still hopeful that we could come back.  Here’s where I really am kicking myself.  I was playing defense.  I play loose so that I can gauge where the ball is going better.  The QB moves to throw the ball and I anticipate where it’s going and move in between the ball and the receiver.  Just as the ball is entering my hands, I take my eyes off the ball…and drop it.  F. U. C. K.

I’ve over thought the whole thing in my head and what I think happened is that my mind still thinks I’m 18.  When I was that young, my reflexes were good enough that I probably could have taken my eyes off the ball and still caught it, but not now.  I’ve noticed this a few times in the past few years, but I haven’t really played enough sports to be able to “re-train” my brain.  And so it is.  We lost by a score of like 25 to 7.  While I don’t feel responsible (2 interceptions…) I do feel that I could have turned the tide…if I had just caught the damn ball!

Zombies

I woke up yesterday morning in a cold sweat.  I’d been having a dream about zombies.  Seriously.  There was some kind of outbreak and they were everywhere.  Christian Bale was leading us.  I’d made some kind of zombie weapon and really wanted to show it to Christian Bale, but when I gave it to him, it turned to crap.  I mostly remember the end of my dream.  I was trying to get away but was trapped in a room with concrete walls, like a basement.  They were coming in.  I decided to try and knock myself unconcious so I ran as fast as I could into the wall head first…and woke up.  Eek!  It was about 20 minutes before my alarm was set to go off and I wanted to sleep a little more…but those zombie images really stuck with me.

I did drift back off a little, but of course the damn zombies were still after me.  For some reason, my goal was to destroy a dam.  I knew with certainty that if I could just flood the area, the water would kill all the zombies.  (I don’t think this is right though, I think you have to destroy the brain)  I remember succeeding in my attenmpt to destroy the dam and water being everywhere.  I was trying to find some place that wasn’t underwater and climbed up into a building.  I remember thinking it was great that the zombies were gone and that I could relax…except that I couldn’t…because I would never feel safe again.

It happens to everyone

When you don’t post for awhile, it gets harder and harder to post as you begin to make a mental list of all the things you’d like to post about.  When you estimate how long it will take you, the answer inevitably comes back, “I don’t have time to write that much.” and then you end up delaying even further.

The highlights:

Neil Diamond – Sharron and I went to Boston to see Neil Diamond in Fenway Park.  It was awesome.  This was the first concert I’d ever been to where the crowd was louder than the music.

Dog – We did end up adopting a dog.  Her name was Bella.  She seemed perfect for Parker.  She needed a little bit of obediance traning, but was very nice.  We took her to the vet to have her checked out and we found out that she was pregnant and had serious lyme disease.  All said and done we would have been set back probably over $1,000, for a free dog.  We don’t have a new dog any more.

Hamlet 2 – You probably shouldn’t see this.  Maybe if it’s free on TV.  And you’ve been drinking.  We laughed some, but there are better movies to watch out there.  :-)

Wood Shed – Sharron and I built a shed to house our firewood.  It took us 2 days, but we built it from scratch.  It was fun!